Baby News

This is going to be the short version, and I thought I better post about this now because Aubrey talks alot, bless her little heart. Well a couple weeks ago I took a blood test so they could screen for any abnormalities on the baby. well they came back posotive. The doctor told us not to worry to much because alot of times these tests come back as a false positive. So naturally I was a little worried but tried not to be. They wanted a specialest at my Ultrasound just to make sure. So a couple days ago I had my ultrasound and it was not good at at all. Our baby has Anencephaly, wich means that the babys brain has stopped developing and won't be able to live after birth. The Specialist (not LDS), told us that we needed to terminate the pregnancy as soon as possible. Thank goodness that matt was there with me, but so was aubrey. she didn't know really everything but she knew that the baby was not doing good. I had a hard time hearing that. But at the same time, both MAtt and I were very comforted. Its a feeling that cannot be explained. They wanted us to go straight to see my doctor but I couln't. I had aubreys birthday starting in 20 min that I had to get home for. Try throwing a party for 12 little kids after news like that. I had hardly no time to process anything. Matt and I had alot of questions and concerns moraly and Ethicly. Does the baby get a name? what happens to the baby because at this point I would have to go through labor and everything. There were so many unanswered questions that we had. later that evening matt called Dr. Christensen, our normal doctor, and close friend to ask him some of these question that we had. He actually called our stake President who also happens to be a doctor and He and our Bishop came right over. We talked with them for about and Hour. And The Stake President read us what the church handbook says about abortion, because this would fall under that category. But there are also exeptions that the church makes and our case fell under those exeptions also. He ultimatly told us that It was a decission to be made between us and the Lord, with counseling from our Bishop. And he said that no matter what you do, there will be people who don't agree with your decisssion. And He said that that was ok. But ultimatly it was our decission. Obviously there was alot more to our conversation, but thats the short version. They gave Matt a blessing and Matt gave me one and the whole experience was amazing and spiritual that words can't even describe. After much Prayer, Matt and I decided that I am going to carry this baby Full term. The babys Heart is strong and It will continue to grow but the brain will not. I have felt the baby move and we know that this is our little baby still growing. There is a chance that the baby will live for a couple hours or in some cases a couple days. We just don't know for sure. But our babys spirit will recive a body and even if we have a chance to Hold, and be with our baby for a short time here on earth it will be worth it. We know that we will be able to raise our baby again. We feel very blessed right now and very humbled. We just want everyone to know that we are ok. We REALLY ARE, The Lord has Comforted us. I always thought that if this ever happend to me, I wouldn't be able to handle it. Loosing a baby just seemed to me, to unbearable. But now that it is happening to us, I know I can handle it, and both Matt and I Fell it is going to be an amazing experience that with strengthen us and our Family. Granted, I know it will be hard but the Lord always Blesses us and Gives us strength through our toughest Trials. I just feel blessed that we have time to prepare ouselves for when our baby comes. We feel very strongly about our decission, and know that this is the right decission for us and our family. The last few days have been rough and alot of tears shed but we are doing well and the Lord has blessed us in so many ways. Thank you to all who have been praying for us. We Love You and are gratefull for your Love and Support.